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#0   Thu Aug 22 05:36:02 PDT 2019
I'm sitting here listening to some Eurobeat while drinking a bottle of water.
#1   Thu Aug 22 10:05:24 PDT 2019
I'm laying on a bed procrastinating studying, soon (hopefully) I'll be eating cake because of the birthday of a family member. It's kinda hot in here and the room is a bit dim because of the half closed window shutters
#2   Thu Aug 22 12:16:34 PDT 2019
There's a cool breeze blowing through my window today. Summer is finally winding down.
#3   Thu Aug 22 14:53:52 PDT 2019
I went for a drive earlier and the only notable thing I found was a police checkpoint. I haven't seen one in years.
#4   Fri Aug 23 00:59:22 PDT 2019
enjoying some berry yogurt
#5   Fri Aug 23 01:41:40 PDT 2019
Sitting here listening to some Phantasmagoria, reading some stuff online, and talking to a few others on Discord. Probably going to fix a bite to eat here in a little bit starting to get a tad bit hungry.
#6   Fri Aug 23 13:46:20 PDT 2019
My experience living as a neet with my parents for 6 years now is that it sucks ass.
#7   Fri Aug 23 22:45:31 PDT 2019
I suffer as an ugly male.
#8   Sat Aug 24 03:49:45 PDT 2019
@6 Try living as a NEET for close to 12.
#9   Sat Aug 24 05:04:06 PDT 2019
@6 "Real" life sucks more.
#10   Sat Aug 24 06:12:03 PDT 2019
Here's something you never wanted to know:

I'm trying to bleach my ass, balls and dick but after a month they're still the same old disgusting grey-brown.

That is all.
Have a nice day.
#11   Sat Aug 24 09:06:39 PDT 2019
I haven't slept in 24 hours and I need to push myself to stay up for 9 more hours.
#12  Sat Aug 24 23:20:08 PDT 2019
@10
>one life
>was born with brown nipples
#13  Sun Aug 25 00:06:33 PDT 2019
My back hurts so bad. I need to really work on my posture.
#14  Sun Aug 25 05:48:21 PDT 2019
@13 That might not be enough. The pain is often caused by wider musculoskeletal issues requiring additional rehabilitation. See an orthopedist if you can.
#15  Sun Aug 25 09:58:49 PDT 2019
@12 >_<
#16  Sun Aug 25 10:00:13 PDT 2019
Currently eating very spicy instant ramen. My lips are burning.
#17  Sun Aug 25 11:09:15 PDT 2019
@15 <_<
#18  Sun Aug 25 22:24:47 PDT 2019
For some reason it can be hard for me to breathe properly. Sometimes I would hold my breath for no reason at all. I try to breathe through my nose because I read that it was good for the brain but I'm used to breathing through my mouth. I have to juggle with breathing through my nose or mouth. It's very annoying.
#19  Mon Aug 26 01:30:22 PDT 2019
>I read that it was good for the brain
That's the dumbest thing I've read today.
#20  Mon Aug 26 07:25:26 PDT 2019
#21  Mon Aug 26 11:20:03 PDT 2019
@20 Yeah, that's the dumbest thing I've read today.
#22  Mon Aug 26 11:51:01 PDT 2019
@17 >_>
#23  Tue Aug 27 05:01:53 PDT 2019
Kill me, I don't like working…
#24  Tue Aug 27 10:38:07 PDT 2019
@23
*works you to death*
Heh nothing personnel, kid.
#25  Tue Aug 27 11:44:48 PDT 2019
It's quite a shock to realize how much of a loser you are when you go to school and see stereotypical losers have a good social circle while you have no one. I don't know a single person and I don't know how to even start. I guess that's the result of being a shut-in NEET for so many years.
#26  Tue Aug 27 11:55:21 PDT 2019
@25 They're clearly not losers. Losers don't have friends.
#27  Tue Aug 27 23:06:07 PDT 2019
I hate my nose hair.
#28  Wed Aug 28 06:18:04 PDT 2019
@24 No, u
@25 It's not like normies are fun to be around anyway. I know lots of people, but they all seem superficial and spiritually closed off. I only know one person that is "awake". Sadly, the chances of finding such a person are miniscule. So, don't worry, even normies most likely don't know any interesting person themselves, they only have the numbers going for them, but 50 boring people are just as good as none at all.
@27 Burn it off, then. I bet that feels quite novel.
#29  Wed Aug 28 22:54:27 PDT 2019
I'm enjoying farting a lot tonight feels pretty damn good to push out.
#30  Fri Aug 30 08:06:27 PDT 2019
I hate being sick.
#31  Fri Aug 30 12:08:40 PDT 2019
@29 Don't push things too far!
#32  Sat Aug 31 00:47:01 PDT 2019
I'm losing my mind and trying to keep myself from breaking everything! I'm mentally stressed to my limits.
#33  Sat Aug 31 02:10:51 PDT 2019
@32 What's bothering you? White Genocide?
#34  Sun Sep 1 14:52:03 PDT 2019
@33 No, honestly I don't give a shit about the West. It's going to fail either way. I want to escape from it's stupidity. Personally I'd rather breed my genes with a nice Asian woman. Fuck the white race it's not going to get better.
#35  Sun Sep 1 19:12:35 PDT 2019
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alec_Holowka

Commited suicide after zoe quinn and co. accused him of sexual assault.
#36  Mon Sep 2 07:54:14 PDT 2019
@35
The entire gaming "culture" and "community" disgusts me.
The whole corrupt, inept industry locked in an endless race to the bottom.
All these "journalists" and "developers" who produce nothing of value but spend their days trying to invent and win new shit flinging contests.
And the gamers who slurp it all up and ask for more. Those hecklers who try to use every single piece of news, every single word for cheap drama fuel in their respective holy wars. It's ugly.
It's like witnessing hobos fighting over a cigarette. They're people for fuck's sake, but they refuse to act like it.
They flushed all their decency and dignity down the toilet... for what?

Quality of games is abysmal today but instead of doing something about it all those involved are busy engaging in shallow, vicious battles, 280 characters at a time.
#37  Tue Sep 3 00:09:53 PDT 2019
I just wake up dreaming of pissing. The funny part was that I was gaining consciousness while "pissing", and the feeling was pretty convincing. Luckily I did not actually piss myself, but I hate this
#38  Tue Sep 3 05:17:45 PDT 2019
@37 Careful, my uncle pissed himself that way once.
#39  Tue Sep 3 08:33:50 PDT 2019
The imageboard always has some eerie pics. It's like a haunted house.
#40  Wed Sep 4 02:06:16 PDT 2019
Being a Generation Z kid and not being into the Instagram lifestyle is not a good experience.
#41  Wed Sep 4 03:26:12 PDT 2019
@40 I don't know anything about modern life, didn't realize it's that hard. Sorry about your situation. I know what it's like to be an alienated kid, no one should have to ever experience it.
I know it's meaningless but I wish you best. I hope you'll find your own path and meet good people along the way. I hope you'll be given the support you need and deserve.

Being a hopeless "millenial" with no future and being despised both by the previous and the next generations is a horrible thing too.
I had no positive experiences growing up, no youth to speak of. I can't get over it and it haunts me every day.
I feel incomplete, lonely, cripplingly unfulfilled and unhappy.

I was told to learn to "deal with it" but I just can't.
I spent my whole life quietly suffering behind a stoic mask, that's what society expected me to do. Every time I tried to be the real me and seek a genuine connection to others I'd be shunned, even punished for stepping out of line.
Everyone was always busy with their own problems and they treated my calls for help as assault against their own difficult lives.
I know the rules, I accepted them for a long time and tried my best to kill myself inside, and live like I'm expected to but I can't take it anymore.
I never got used to the pain. The longer it goes on the more it hurts.
I'm broken and I can't pick up the pieces myself. I need someone but no one wants to even know such a person, let alone dedicate their valuable time and heart to really help someone like me become alive.

I really hate the saying "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger." In many contexts it's just wrong.
Things like training and conditioning might make you strong despite being unpleasant but only if they're conducted safely in a proper manner.
Experiencing true accidents and trauma often makes one weaker. If it doesn't maim and cripple it might reward survival with fear, doubts and chronic pain.
I lived through hardship both in physical and mental sense, and none of it made me any stronger.

I'm shattered. I'm old. All is lost. I can't live and I can't even kill myself.
#42  Sun Sep 8 20:35:50 PDT 2019
I have a headache and my left nostril is runny.
#43  Mon Sep 9 06:01:32 PDT 2019
Tiblar.com
#44  Mon Sep 9 06:30:13 PDT 2019
@41 (not @40 but...)
That sucks. I have friends who would (and have already) listen to me talking about how shitty I feel sometimes but I think if I do spill out all my emotion I'll just bore them eventually, and it won't fix anything, just alleviate my weight temporarily.
>Every time I tried to be the real me and seek a genuine connection to others I'd be shunned, even punished for stepping out of line.
>Everyone was always busy with their own problems and they treated my calls for help as assault against their own difficult lives.
Something's wrong here, that sounds like very cold treatment towards you. Maybe you weren't close enough to them before opening up yourself? It's just strange, if they cared for you they'd listen (unless you brought this up too often but it doesn't seem the case), or they have a very different mentality from mine and my friend's. Maybe they were in a very difficult point in their lives themselves, but everyone?
And you don't sound too whiny and self-pitying
Regarding your childhood, well you can't can't change it. You have to find a way to accept it, maybe a therapist could help you with that
>I feel incomplete, lonely, cripplingly unfulfilled and unhappy
I'm pretty sure that's how I'm gonna end up
Anyway if you ever wanna talk, about anything, mail me here: anon394721 at gmail.com
can't guarantee a quick reply, but hopefully I'll answer
#45  Wed Sep 11 05:00:04 PDT 2019
Thinking about either drawing or doing some edits today.
#46  Sun Sep 15 20:09:37 PDT 2019
Over time you get used to enjoying the silence, all the pizza you eat you will eat alone and with no one to share, the days seem longer and always the same, as in a loop, and the world goes round in circles within your brain, while hope is gone every birthday, is destiny, so whatever
#47  Tue Sep 17 18:02:30 PDT 2019
I'm always quiet in school so most people assume that I'm smart but in reality I'm just average.
#48  Thu Sep 19 05:22:33 PDT 2019
@47 I knew a guy who was always quiet so I assumed he was clever. He wasn't
#49  Thu Sep 19 11:43:47 PDT 2019
I'm too insecure about my looks. If an average or pretty girl looks at me I just look down on the ground.
#50  Thu Sep 19 11:47:20 PDT 2019
I'm just sitting here listening to some video game soundtracks.

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